Saturday September 13, 5:00 pm -7:30

I just sat up at the hospital with Grandma for a few hours. She was agitated when I tried to talk to her because she wanted to talk back and couldn't. She kept shaking her head no. I told her that they were going to try to get her off the ventilator tomorrow, and she shook her head no.

Also, when I tell her I am staying and reading a book, she shakes her head no. She is still typical Maxine even though she is on the ventilator. She doesn't want to put anyone out.

It is now evening and my mom just left the hospital. I am sitting up here with Grandma. They just cleaned out her lungs which is a horrible thing to watch. She seems super pissed. I would be too if I had a tube down my throat. Can you imagine not being able to reply to people? Also, I have realized how hard it is not to ask her questions.

I am currently playing the Gather Vocal Band Hymns for her. I know how much she loves them, and I am pretty sure she is tired of me talking to her and would rather just listen to music. Her eyes are closed, but I hope she can hear it. What could be better than hearing the words "Amazing Grace" from your favorite musical group.

They just came in and are going to start giving her food through a tube. They are also going to sedate her so that she can sleep tonight. They said that this won't mess up her chances of getting off the vent tomorrow, but more so will help her rest so that she has strength tomorrow.

Praise: The nurses told us today that just because she is on the ventilator doesn't mean anything bad. They are just trying to slowly ween her off. I know she wants it to be sooner rather than later, but we are glad that they are not concerned at all.

Praise: Her heart is beating strong. They have no concerns with her heart right now, and we are super grateful for that.

Prayer: Please just pray that she can get off of this stupid (yet wonderful) ventilator tomorrow. I am so tired of seeing her look like an invalid when I know there is such an amazing woman inside who has so many delightful and witty things to say.

Prayer: Please pray that somehow, in all of the confusion, that she could draw near to the Lord. That she could rest in Him and depend on Him. He is the only person she can have a conversation with right now, so please pray that God gives her peace and rest in Him.

Thank you all so much for your concern. She loves you and she appreciates you.

Sarah